Dost
dedicated to some frnds whom i lost in this journey of life bcoz of some misunderstanding or any other issue or some other prob ..... frnds i miss u always ....... and whatever it is....... all good memories we share will always sustain with me .....
dosto ab mughe tumse koi shikwa na rha , bas apne rishto per pehle jaisa, vo guman na rha, tumne chodha he tanha jindagi ki raho , toh ab tanhiyo me bhi khush hu me , kyoki tumhare begar toh vaise bhi mehfil ka koi mazza na rha, un beete lamho ki yaado se aj bhi aakhe nam ho jati h , ab kisi aur ke saath aisi yaade bnane ka armann na rha, tumhe aksar shikayet rehti thi ki hum har ek ko apna maan lete h, lo khush ho jao ab humra koi apna na rha, tumne hajro iljaam humre damman me dale, aur humne khamoshi se sare seh dale, kyuki jin rishto me vishwas hi nhi , vha samjhne samjhane ka koi matlab na rha, kisi din bhrosa lout bhi aaye toh na aana tum mere pass, kyuki mughe kaber me sakoon mil rha h, apni bechaniya ko batne ka ab na kehna tum, kyuki tumhre aitbaar ke bavjood me aa na sakugi, aur mere dosto tumhari udaas toh me marker bhi dekh na sakugi........
me aksar sochta hu…………..
me aksar sochta hu jab tanhiyo ke baare me toh na jane kyu tera khayal aa jata h,
ruburu ho aata h tera har ahssas ,bita har lamha yaad aa jata h,
me muskrate hue us har lamhe me bas tughe pa lene ka matlab sochta hu,
mere khuda ko bhi shayad un palo me toh meri mohabbat per yakin aa jata h,
mere vajood ko apne hone per yakeen aa jata h jab tu khawabo me hi shi mera ho jata h,
koi nhi samjhe sakta us her lamhe ke betabi ko jomainetere bin kata h ,
tum aksar kehti thi ki meri jindagi teri amanat h ,
teri usi yakeen per hi shayad ab tak ka ye waqt kata h ,
varnajudai ki in lamho me mughe na jane kitne tukdo me baata h ,
laut aao jab me, toh tum samet lena mughko,
apne pyar ke ahsaas se fir sakoon dena mughko,
mere vajood ko apne vajood se mila fir ek baar pura ker dena mughko …
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dil tu…………..
Dil tu samjhta kya nhi ,
jo jata h vo kabhi lautker vapis nhi ata,
palatker baar-2 dekhne se un raho me ,
sirf aakho me dard uter aata h,
vo jane wala kabhi najer nhi aata,
tu sawal mat puch ab unke jane per,
kyoki ab vha se koi jawab nhi aata,
vo bhul chukka h har lamha jo saath bitya,
kyu tughse kuch bhi bhulya nhi jata,
dil tu samjhta kyu nhi
jo jata h jane ke liye vo kabhi lautker vapis nhi aata …… 
who am i?
Who am I? This is the biggest question in my life. I always want to know about my ability,
limitation and what I really dream about? But after this long year of journey with myself 
I found that some time I also don’t know what is my reaction going to be.
Sometimes I think I am an internally weak person but sometimes I realize how strong I am when I held all my pain with dignity and moves in life and accept the reality.I cried all night in my bed but it doesn’t mean I can’t tell anybody that I feel hurt.I am a liar but I can also face the truth. I know that I want to be best but some part of mylife I am a biggest looser still it’s hard to accept but I am working on it.
I don’t know sometime I found my self so strong that I can fight with the whole world and assure about winning. But sometimes I felt so weak that I can’t even fight with a single negative thought, what is that? I thought and a secret smile comes on my face. After all we all are human and so much controlled by our own hormones…. funny thing .isn’t it? Which we can’t understand is the basic part of our life. Well I think that’s the most important and interesting part of human life.. We try to understand and get thrill by our own wild and weird thoughts and nature.
More over it’s interesting to have a girl’s life. Bcoz there are more rules and more chances to break it and feel the thrill and chance to check your own limitation. Isn’t it? I love that 
Aadat
hasi ke libaas me gamo ko chipane ki aadat si padh gyi h,
her lamhe me tughe yaad krne aur phir bhul jane ki aadat si padh gyi h,
her koi kehta h mughe dekh jindgi ko jeena ka ahssas hota h,
per unhe kya khu ki mughe mout se milne ki chahat si ho gyi h,
band ker diye h sab darwaje maine dil ke tughe chahker,
ab juthe sapno me jeene ki aadat si ho gyi h,
ek arsa beet gya maine khud se baaat nhi ki,
aaine me ek ajnabi ko dekhne ki ab aadat si ho gyi h,
har lamha koshish kerti hu tere begar jeene ki,
aur ab bas ye koshish hi krne ki aadat si ho gyi h…..
sirf tumhe………..
tumhe lagta he ki tumhe bhul jauga me,
jaisa badalta h waqt vaise me bhi badal jauga me,
abhi na lout aane ke liye me khi chala jauga me,
ya fir tera dil todker bas mauskrauga me,
per sach kho bhala apne hi akas ko kaise bhula paugame,
kitna bhi dur chala jau apni hi parchai ko toh na chod pauga me,
mere sab khawab,khayalat,jasabat amanat banker baste h tere dil me,
jo ise toda toh khud bhi toh bikhar jauga me,
tughe yakken krne me shayad waqt lgega,
aur apni jindagi se jyda waqt na de pauga me,
sirf tughe chaha aur tughe hi chahuga me………
